cliches are truthful
It’s just burning a hole in my pocket!
I wish that instead of my landlord telling me that I only had to pay half of October’s rent, he hadn’t told me anything. That way, I’d still be pinching pennies without missing a beat. But it’s extra harder now, because that’s over $300 of money from my next paycheck. I’ve already spent almost half of it on furniture for the apartment, but that’s a legitimate expense. Certainly more legitimate than some of the other stuff I wanna do with it - eat out… buy about five CD’s… go accessories or shoes shopping… But what I really want to do with it is apply it towards paying off my old credit card debt.
After work yesterday, I did allow myself to buy a CD. Working right near the mall just made it too easy. Jill Scott’s The Real Thing Words and Sounds Vol. 3 came out yesterday, and instead of waiting for it to go on sale, I went right to the CD store and bought it. Not the just the CD, either. The Deluxe Limited Edition, complete with DVD and a different cover. (I’m like her biggest fan.) You know that cost me over $20, right? I didn’t even go to Cir.cuit City where I knew it would be $5 cheaper. I just went to the closest CD store, hunted down my CD, and pulled out the card.
But I am SO OKAY with my purchase. I would SO do the same thing. I have no buyer’s remorse, and it’s not just because I like the CD. It’s also because in the grand scheme of things, I am good with my money. I worked hard to get to where I am. I deserve to be able to buy something as simple as a CD because I am paying my debt back and I’m doing it well.
Now maybe I shouldn’t be getting that other stuff… which is why I’m won’t be getting it. If I have to sit on my hands until payday, I’ll do what I have to do. But dang it, it feels like this money is burning a hole in my pocket.
